The Soul Of My Feet

The rain has been pouring down this last week and I caught a glimpse of sunshine today, it was amazing, it made me think that sometimes life can be so drizzly and cold that all you want to do is curl up in bed and wait until it has all passed. But with little ones around that never seem to let you have a sleep it’s difficult to hibernate while life is a little hard. We have to still put on a brave and confident face for our kids even though we’re feeling like an absolute failure inside.

We took a trip to the library today, it was lovely, caught up with familiar mums and we swapped our mummy stories –  it’s amazing that when you’re absolutely honest with the way you are feeling, it somehow liberates others to open up about their struggles and it enables us to bear one another’s loads… and realise that we are all going through the same joys and trials of motherhood and life for that matter… There’s somebody else that wants to listen to our burdens and take them off our shoulders, his name is Jesus…

‘Call upon me in the day of trouble, I will deliver you, and you will honour me’ (Psalm 50:15)

You may be thinking why is Nada blogging every single minute of the day at the moment? Well, I’m under a bit of a deadline to write a collection of life moments that will soon go to air on our local Christian radio station. So I’m madly trying to get the last few together to record this week whilst my hubby is getting the music together which will run behind my voice. Now this is most definitely a God thing because there is no way that my voice was ever meant for radio I mean I sound about 5 when I talk and sometimes even have a lisp. So it will either soar or be a complete flop… but somewhere in it all someone thought I could do it, so here goes…

Ever feel like your kids have pushed every single button in your body and you’re about to explode with a type of uncontrollable rage that will probably send the  neighbours packing?

Yes it seems that even those  little people that barely reach your hip, somehow have the ability to send you on an emotional rollercoaster which can sometimes be difficult to control particularly when we’re feeling a little stressed and  hormonal. For me it’s usually about the same time every month and every month I pray that I will be able to handle things better next time…and you know what? –  God is actually beginning to answer my prayers.

You see I used to ignore the little signals that often began the spiral of tears and  feelings of defeat but I now I’m beginning to recognise the warning signals and before things even get a chance to turn ugly I ask my hubby and kids for help and usually try and go for a walk or have a bath to just allow my thoughts to slow down. And rather than turning on the TV to avoid reality I face it and reflect on why I’m feeling this way, sometimes I turn to God’s word for some answers…even tonight, life had a chance to turn very ugly but after a big cuddle from all my boys and a little cry (sometimes it’s good to let it out…), I opened up my Bible and found these comforting words:

‘May the words of my mouth and the thoughts of my heart be pleasing in your sight, O Lord, my Rock and my Redeemer’ (Psalm 22:11)